FORGOTTEN
Forgotten Episode -47
© Authoress Manny
Nick POV
Hearing her a say those words made me feel really bad but it also confused me, could she also love?? Or is it that she hates the fact that I lover?? Mehn Britney is just too confusing
But am not selfish or self centered, I always try to put others before me even though it hurts me
Why would she say something as harsh as that I said to myself as I slumped down to the ground crying lowly, I buried my head on my knees and continue crying and asking myself dumb questions
Don't I deserve love?, can't I be happy??, Does she love me or hate me, I wanna know please I asked myself lowly but heard someone answer me
She loves you moron I heard the voice. Then why doesn't she show it i asked not looking up to know who was answering me
Have you asked her, or have you given her a reason to show it, the voice asked and I looked up to see Ian staring down at me with a stern look
She doesn't love me, she can't love me, I don't even deserve her I said with tears rolling down my eyes while ian looked down at me pitifully
I don't want pity please I say to him
Then don't make me pity you and tell her how you feel even if she rejects you he said and walked out
I sluggishly stood up and went to wash my face, I looked at myself on the mirror and realized I was mess but that didn't matter as long as I am able to tell her how I feel
I walked out of our room and got down, I met few peeps sitting
Erm were is AB I asked
That bitch Victoria exclaimed but I paid no attention
Does anyone know were she is I asked again
WHY CAN'T YOU FORGET THAT ASSHOLE AND LOOK AT ME, WE KNEW EACH OTHER BEFORE SHE CAME INTO THE PICTURE Mandy yelled making me scoff
NICK THAT BITCH DOESN'T DESERVE YOUR LOVE AND ATTENTION, STOP WASTING YOUR TIME AND LOOK AT ME BABY Victoria said making me more mad
THE NEXT TIME YOU CALL HER NAMES, I WILL MAKE SURE YOU REGRET EVER BEING BORN, YOU CALL HER NAMES THAT YOU SHOULD BE ANSWERING, SHE'S EVERYTHING YOU ARE NOT
SHE'S RESPECTFUL, WELL MANNERED, SHE KNOWS WHEN AND HOW TO TALK, SHE HARDLY EVER GETS MAD, SHE DOESN'T THROW HERSELF TO GUYS, SHE'S MORE PRETTY, MORE INTELLIGENT, MORE SEXY, SHE'S GOT NICE BODY YOU BOTH ARE DYEING AND KILLING YOURSELVES FOR, DON'T YOU EVER I MEAN EVER TALK ABOUT HER WITH LITTLE OR NO RESPECT I yelled with venom in my voice making everyone flinch
YES I FUCKING LOVE HER, I ALWAYS LOVED HER EVEN BEFORE I KNEW SHE WAS FROM THE GATE'S FAMILY, EVEN BEFORE SHE STEPPED A FOOT INTO CYRUS HIGH, I ALWAYS LOVED HER FROM AFAR AND THAT'S BECAUSE I KNOW SHE DESERVES BETTER THAN ME AND WHEN SHE WAS IN TROUBLE I WAS NEVER THERE TO HELP HER I yelled breaking down, I looked up and saw her standing still with her face socked with tears, before I could say a word she ran out and nobody dared followed her by now everyone was already seated in the sitting room watching the on going drama
Nick am sorry baby Victoria said and I kept mute
I know I hurt you back then I never meant to, and now I see I can't have you am ready to give up and let you be Victoria said and I looked up at her teary face and all I could see was sincerity, I only nod and went back to the room and continue crying silently
I cried for a long time till it was night time, I was called for both lunch and dinner but I refused, I just lay on the bed crying silently
Britney's POV
Hearing Nick say those words really meant the world to me and I felt really excited, but what if he was lying, no he wasn't I saw how sincere he was in his eyes, he truly loves me and I love him too but can I really keep a relationship? That is really hard and I don't wanna mess up and hurt him or me
I stayed in the garden till it was midnight, no one dared look for me when am like this, I silently walked into the house and met some people still in the sitting room, Ian, Jason and the others had worried look on their faces
Thank God you are here, do you want your food now Jason asked like the big brother he was
No am fine, and you guys didn't have to wait up for me I said calmly even thou my voice was sour from crying
Please eat something, so you won't fall sick Eva said pleadingly
Am really okay, I wanna sleep now I said and they nod
I gently walked the stairs and entered our room, I met Nick sleeping but he had serious eye bags, I gently lay on his bed and rest my head on his chest
How much I love you, why didn't you tell me much sooner??
Why did you hurt yourself and me so much??
I really love you but I dont know if am good enough for you
I don't even know how to be a lover, I don't know how to kiss, how to turn you on or do any of those stuff Nick, am not good for you i said and my tears wet his cloth
I tried standing up but I felt a strong arm holding my waist down
Please don't go I heard him whisper with a cracked voice due to crying
You don't know how much I always dreamed of having you in my arms, you laying on my chest and me holding you tightly to my body he said and I heard him sniff
I am the one who isn't good for you, I always hurt you, make you feel stupid and vulnerable, I was scared of rejection, of you saying no and you saying am not worth you, you are very perfect with your flaws but am not perfect and I have stupid flaws, he said and I sniff
I love you Nicholas Brown, I fucking love you it killing me
I love you Britney Anastasia Gates, I love you too much and it killing me and making me lose my sanity he said and I smiled and stood up and bowed my head shyly
Please be my girl he said lifting my head up but I bowed instantly cause I was the shy type and I was new to this
I......don't..... know......how to date or be a lover I said looking down and fidgeting with my nails, I heard him chuckle I instantly looked up at him and he burst into laughter making me frown and tried standing up but he held me down still laughing
It not funny you jerk I said pouting
okay am sorry he said
I don't need you to know how to kiss and be a lover or even turn me on cause you are the perfect lover and everything you do turn me on already he said seriously and my cheeks heat up
I love you so very much Britney sorry Anastasia he said and I smiled
Britney is cool but I can't make anyone know we are together except our friends and siblings I said and he frowned
Why?? He asked frowning
Cause I want to send Antonio and Milicent to jail first I said and he smiled and nod
But I have to do this, before I could ask do what he already slam his on mine, at first I didn't know what to do but when me bit my lips I gasped and he slid his tongue into my mouth and before I knew it I was reciprocating with one of my hands on his neck and the other on his hair and his hand of my waist and one on my ass
We finally disengaged trying to steady our breathing,
That was your first kiss he said more like asked and I turned shyly and he chuckled
Please say yes already, be my girl please he pleaded pouting and I chucked and blushed
Yes of course am yours and you are mine I said shyly and he kissed me a little and hugged me
I slept in his arms that night and it felt magical
Tbc
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